#this was genuinely such a nice thing to wake up to
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One of my favorite things the movie did was show just how much Elphaba was winning, and how desperate Galinda had to be to give her the hat. Through Popular she's painted as having the upper had, but right at the end it shows Morrible lavishing Elphaba with attention, she's whipped the whole school into such a tizz she can no longer control them, and she's practically eating alone. Galinda thinks of herself as truly a good person, sure she manipulates people (see Boq) but she can tell herself it's for the benefit of them both. There's no way she can tell herself that with the hat, she knew the looks and words that would follow that hat, but she also knew it would never come back to her. Elphaba wasn't the kind to point blame, to scream 'you tricked me', all Galinda has to do is live with the guilt. And she can't.
Ooo I definitely picked up on this! That bit at the end of What Is This Feeling? really does demonstrate it and I think it's so interesting that they really showed this in the film. It's been a hot minute since I've seen the stage musical, but I do think they played more into Elphaba deciding to have the upper hand in the movie. I think Elphaba is such a strong character though - she's had to deal with this all her life anyway, so what's another person? And I think you can kind of see her come to terms with that.
And then, Glinda gives her the hat. And Elphaba thinks, huh maybe we've turned a corner. So, as a kind gesture back, she insists on Morrible teaching Glinda too. And when Glinda realises this, you're absolutely right, she's left with nothing but guilt. Because she definitely intended to trick her. It's a real turning point. After Morrible declares that Elphaba will room with Glinda, she says 'I didn't get my way. I need to lie down.' In the Ozdust, she doesn't get her way again. Yes, Elphaba is humiliated, but she doesn't feel good about it this time. She's never felt guilty for mocking Elphaba before, but this time she realises that her roommate thought she was being genuine and actually wanted her there. As a result, she did something nice in return - the very thing Glinda has wanted since she started at Shiz. The very thing she was jealous of Elphaba for in the first place.
I think it's a real wake up call for Glinda. And boy does she have a lot of grovelling to do.
Thanks for the Ask!!
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omfg. i just read your piece “moments in twilight” and i am awestruck. first of all, it is SO criminally underrated and i pity everyone who hasn’t read it. your writing style is just wow. reading your words is like reading a whole collection of SO SO SO incredibly well-written poems. your work is poetry and you’ve changed my brain chemistry for the rest of my life i fear. you had me so invested and sobbing inconsolably at the end. THANK YOU for writing and please never stop 😭🙏. your piece gave me shivers. don’t even get me started on all the beautiful character development. the way you write sukuna is 🤌🤌🤌🤌🤌 and every metaphor you use just fits so perfectly. i don’t know how else to explain it but your writing is simply ethereal
ahhhh nonie!!!!
this was such an incredibly kind and sweet thing to say about my writing!!!! that it’s poetry?!?!? it made you cry and shiver?!?!?? that it’s ethereal?!?!? those are one of the highest compliments i can ever get on something i have written, so thankyou so much for taking the time to pop into my inbox and say this!!!
and i am so glad you enjoyed the way I wrote sukuna!!! i was very anxious and kept overthinking his character and the way he would be around the reader, so i’m really glad you thought he was well written <333
i hope you stick around to enjoy my other pieces n never be shy about popping into my inbox to share your thoughts :3
much love,
Lily xo
#💌 lily answers#this was genuinely such a nice thing to wake up to#I absolutely ADOREEEEEE long asks like this it really makes me day#and if any nonies want to assign themselves emojis (the way ari collects anon emojis like they are Pokémon seriously needs to be studied)#then please feel free to do that because it would be so nice to kind of have a semi idea of who I’m speaking to heheh :3#MWAH MWAH I AM HUGGING YOU SO TIGHTLY THOUGH NONIE!!! <333
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I love Tumblr because nothing matters here truly. There are no influencers. Having followers doesn’t mean anything. It’s just a site where people post their sporadic thoughts and rb pretty pictures. Anyone who thinks any of this matters is woefully missing the point
#I joined tumblr for the aesthetics and now I’m here bc it’s the most low pressure social media to be on#Instagram is ppl’s highlight reel but Tumblr is where u see their pure thoughts unobstructed and I adore that#It’s very nice to have people to relate to and is def the main appeal to me but I don’t think there’s much more to it than that genuinely#Monetization on tumblr isn’t a thing and probably won’t be so it feels stupid to put more stake than necessary in it. Like you’re in the#Trenches over tumblr of all things. Embarrassing#I know chronically online people exist bc I have seen them in my or somebody else’s inbox but imagine waking up at 70 one day and the#Realization hitting u like a freight time that u wasted all ur time thinking tumblr. TUMBLR. This dying website. Has enough weight for u to#be sending anon hate or reviewing ppl’s blogs like they’re some kind of product. Brother this is licherally tumblr#I choose to laugh at this behavior than take it seriously bc absolutely no one is driving me crazy on my OWN blog. On tumblr dot com.#I refuse#I will do whatever I want forever etc
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is anyone else using alcohol as a painkiller or is it just me and house out here
#text#I DONT LIKE HOW MUCH I HAVE IN COMMON WITH HIM .#thats the only way im ever able to go out. i pregame so i can get to the bar 😭#tipsy at 8pm so i can get to the restaroau(realizes i cant spell that word) food place so i can spend $14 on a martini#so i can go to the club without collapsing on the ground crying#1 shot of titos for fun. another so i can get back to my friend's house#then i uber home. so i dont have to wake up and pretend im not in pain and agony and my heart rate isnt 130+ til i get home#<- this all happened on a specific night in like september btw.#man. i miss the rage...#well the rage was really bad for my bank account. and my body. and the bpd allegations. but still#its so nice. to have like a couple hours where i can walk around and have fun with my friends#and not send myself home bc i know its a bad idea to Do these things to my body#im able to block out the pain for a while So i do. and i have fun#And then the next morning i go fuck i cant ever do that again.and then i stay in bed all day#but its fun in the moment its so much fun in the moment#alcohol tw#i dont have like. A Problem btw Slash Genuine i just like going out with my friends and dont like being in pain#two for one deal. price of 1 stomachache and lots of pain later#neg#health tag#hlb
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#svsss#scum villains self saving system#shang qinghua#how I be feeling these days ahdnfjgkg#I keep stressing about life in general and its seriously bumming me out hajdjg#how nice it would be to not exist#everyday I wake up and do the same things I hate#time hasn't felt real in years and it goes way before covid times#I haven't felt real in most of those years either#Look I'm lucky I'm not like depressed or whatever but frankly this derealization shit is seriously startin to get a little worrying at times#tbf I only really notice it recently so maybe its just a bias#I've been chugging along this way for years all thats changed is my perception of it#but at the same time I really want to do more too#I get I'm a very boring and unreliable person#and I know I just said its my perception of it but like I do genuinely think my social skills my general living just like me mentally ig#I'm kinda deteriorating in my stagnation ig? artistically too but more worrying in my life idbfjg#priorities sorry anyways I also think I do have adhd or something and that rejection thing dhfjgjg I really can't start things anymore#idk I really just feel so clueless in most things now and I'm too scared or too confused or both to start fixing things#like how do I even fix things? what do I even search for in this kind of thing?#Idk I'm just gonna go sleep ig god I'm so tired of everything#I haven't been able to draw I've really lost passion for a lot of things again and everything irritates me#I can't stand my phone sometimes but it's kinda the only thing getting me through it all ha#ngl I wish I were depressed sometimes if only so I'd actually have the balls to do smth but Ik that's just the Metnally Ail part speaking so#chug chug going along#I also have to make wushi before I die. haha#god my life is so empty#what am I even doing#I'm really so tired why can't my life end here already? modern lifespans are too long how am I supposed to keep going on like this?#so pointless and vapid and its just me ? why did it have to be me that was born? couldn't someone else have been here I hate it here so much#I strive for nothing but I have such a long life and so many people to disappoint haha maybe I should go outside more
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no promises anymoooooreeeee i'll appear online when i appear online 😭 every time i say "ooh i think life is almost done being overwhelming!" it. becomes even more overwhelming in the dumbest ways. all i can manage rn when i'm not stressing myself into a shut-down state is staring at the wall while listening to youtube essays + mindlessly crocheting.
i might queue up ppls art and fics w/o commentary in the tags... i want other ppl to see what all of my cool friends have made, but i genuinely can't think right now with this monstrous brain fog. i'm really sorry, just. yeah. maybe i'll think of some way to make it up later!!! once the dust has settled!!!! but until then i wuv u and miss u. smiles.
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[venting in tags including familial manipulation and ableism. i. didn't mean to write all of that, thiss was originally going to be a main blog post but. aaaaaAAAAAA!!!!!
also no need for replies or anything, i'd turn them off for just the one post if i could kjsndkn, i just needed to get things out and go eep jsjndsfdn ok bye bye bye bye!!!!]
#goddd my family finds it sooooooo funny that i can't do basic tasks! it's soooo funny that i can't even think of a horror movie to watch#on halloween bc i genuinely can't remember a single one right now. it's soooo funny that i can't take cardboard boxes or#old furniture out of my room without help bc i've physically and mentally and emotionally burnt out for Months.#and me not being able to move shit out after two (2) days makes me a hoarder somehow. and ofc hoarding is a moral failing#and my mom has to give me a stern talking-to about hoarding things... that were. again. in my room for 2 days....#[tbc it isnt a moral failing no matter the reason. life is hard and things happen and it can be hard to get rid of things for Reasons.]#nevermind them making constant snide remarks about me using ugly 'mismatched' desk / storage furniture. bc it was free / cheap? no income??#AND!!!!! i have a couple of new diagnoses. which doesn't change much day to day but it does make my family making fun of me#even more dumbfounding. like. this explains a lot of really scary unexplained symptoms that constantly leave me#housebound for weeks but uhhh haha hehe hoho??? so silly so funny that i'm barely conscious for multiple weeks???#and you can see that i'm getting worse but that makes it funnier??? hmm!!!#also nevermind that i've told them the exact reason why i've been like this (read: them) but that ALSO makes it funnier somehow.#but i also can't say shit bc they're doing something ~nice~ for me (out of convenience + after almost a decade of 'don't get comfortable'#and 'don't decorate this room bc it isn't yours' and 'you need to be ready to move out by x date'#only for the date to arrive and them to pull the 'i never said that. and if i did say it i didn't mean it like that.#and if i did mean it like that i don't anymore.' card. + any big renovations are things they wanted anyway. hmmmm!!#and how i have to do all of the phys labor alone bc if i ask for help i get made fun of!!! and yelled at that i'm doing things Wrong#(hint: i'm following instructions to the letter but. my family knows better than those silly things!! ^^ ))#jfc i sure did rant. uh. yeah. things. are really weird and uncomfy and i feel thankful that i finally can have my own things on display#outside of closets and bins again after a decade?? but i'm also waiting for the other shoe to drop / them to tell me i owe them in#some way??? bc that's how it works. 'i'm doing a nice thing you didn't even ask me for so now you have to do whatever i tell you to.'#meanwhile i can't even maladaptive daydream my way through it bc my brain is soup right now. can't remember basic things abt#my interests bc i've been on negative battery / spoons for a couple of months straight and it's only getting worse.#OKAY TLDR i'm not in a state to do anything until everything irl gets settled. and i'm trying So Hard to get it all over with but there's#only so much i can do in a day before i completely shut down. i didn't even get into the insurance stuff i've been fighting too ughhhh.#so if i show up on here in short spurts -- hi! bye! hi!! i wuv and care u!!! hope youre well mwah mwah!!!!!!! i'll post what i can and then#disappear when i need to recharge. it is what it is. i need to try to sleep now... uh if this post disappears when i wake up.... yeah......#📌 [ my posts. ]#💭 [ my thoughts. ]#vent -
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Hi guys
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#THAT LETTER I keep going bqck an rereading it 🥺#genuinely such q nice thing to wake up to after the night I had <:]#runs around in a circle really fast wheeeeeeee :D
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how messed up it must be to go from enjoying plays to feeling like ur stuck inside one..
#sif referring to themself as an actor.. hitting the stage as soon as they wake.. remembering their lines..#definitely not the first time ive seen this kind of symbolism but its always a good one and Especially here#bit of a fucked up thing to do to a theater kid#'follow the script'#watching sif redo the friend events (or anything really) is. a bit disturbing sometimes#its nice that theyre a lot more genuine w bonnie no matter what tho :]#th hug is different too.. theyre more comfortable :')#questioning the morality of doing things for everyone bc it makes them closer to him..........#isat#isat spoilers
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remember when i said i was writing something fluffy for my next fic? yeah sorry guys i lied.
#i’ll figure something else out but this one’s vv inspired by a theory i have that only really has one singular flaw#genuinely minus one small detail from the book i would genuinely think it’s more likely#we <3 waking up at 5am and ending up writing fic after being uninspired for over a week#edit: and one thing from the games but that’s ASSUMING that it’s gregory’s.#listen i WANT to write nice fluffy hand holding but the parasite the demon in me wants to comply slightly w canon#fe rambles#five nights at freddy's
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i think i need routine in my life
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#it’s like i’m withering away#it’s nice but also: feels bad not doing anything#i can’t bring myself to do important things and i’m just kinda existing??#waking up super late eating doing nothing on my phone feeling like the day is wasting away eating sleeping repeat#yet part of me is dreading the moment i don’t get to have this#also: guilt#angel.txt#get me out of this state#i keep thinking about jobs#and school#it’s in the back of my mind#i genuinely don’t like this tho#the days are the same and i don’t feel like doing anything#i need something in my life#and a routine#purpose#some kind of purpose#im wasting away i tell you#haven’t even been feeling very social either#hhnng
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こんにちは!
どうやってこのアスク始めたらいいか分からないけど、あの、君の絵とても好きです!なんか見るとあったかいような、ほっこりするような気持ちがする。子供の絵本で見るようなアートスタイルで見るといつも微笑みます。
最近アートブロックがあるって聞いたから、頑張れ!ちゃんと休んどいてや!(トランスレーションでこれアグレッシブに聞こえたらごめん)
ありがとう!
thank you anon!!!! i love that people keep telling me my art looks like children’s book illustration thats genuinely the highest compliment to me?!?! i will also probably take a little break just because i’ve been busy with work and school and the burnout is really killing me. thank you so much for all the love!
#dont worry about the translation i perfectly understand you#thank you for taking your time to send me such a sweet message#this was genuinely a really nice thing to wake up to#moewips
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YIPPEE i'm actually kind of excited to wake up tomorrow thanks to electrolytes and a hot water bottle! \o/
#in obvious news: being freezing all the time (thanks dysautonomia and winter) and not having a functioning nervous system Feels Bad.#genuinely love to feel like an active and joyous participant in life and the day :P it is so bleak just trying to make the best of things!#and so nice when things are just neutral to good! WAHOO!#don't get me wrong i'm still feeling like garbage but like. alive garbage! a person with electricity in them! there's sparks in my me!#this week i prioritised meeting friends tomorrow over housework which is not something i normally do. trying to. like. feel like that is#something okay to do? very challenging but going okay! i asked for a lift so i can keep the plans i have and someone can give me one!#so i think i will be able to go! unless i wake up tomorrow feeling Much Worse again :P but i have hope!
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#ignore ignore im just talking dont worry about me scroll away#but for me#i think worse than feeling ugly is feeling genuinely stupid#i mean feeling ugly is also not feeling very nice right now of course#but still#i feel like i have to try like 40% harder than other people just to understand certain things#i shouldnt have to retake several classes more than once it's wasteful and foolish and proves i am not meant to be here#im glad i realized now at least i shouldnt go to medical school it would kill me#it's not even just school conversations with people are lost on me so often i feel like i cant keep up with people#and i joke about it with friends and family that i'm a little slow and can't manage a lot of adult responsibilities#but this is really what i think makes me feel unlovable and useless#i feel like i have to constantly fake being smarter than i am#and its silly but i think about how im so attracted to men and characters that are super smart and sharp and i feed into my silly fantasies#and then realize they wouldnt ever give me another glance after more than an hour of conversation#i try really hard but it always seems to fall short idk#gosh my period is always just pulling up my deepest and most painful insecurities before she makes her appearance huh ghjfhkl😭#lord i need to go to sleep i bet when i wake up ill have forgotten ever typing this and feel completely fine 💗
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ummmm
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#oh mika there is beauty in life~ look at your future! everything will be worth it in the end~#my favorite image on this device btw ^#cw negative#cw vent#you know where this is going. apologies my mind is a mess and i really just need to get it out because i find its better than-#-writing a semi formal email to that One (1) emotional support organization and i’m afraid to make a call so#but i just genuinely believe things would be better off if i weren’t alive. a bit of a silly thing to jump to i know but#my tuition fees aren't cheap and i'm not even that great of a student or a daughter or a sister and i-#-have no talents or remarkable feats. i’m not impressive in any way. and i hate hearing shit about how ^_^ its okay! we all have something-#-special about ourselves! for example maybe you have really good hand writing and thats good enough ~ but that doesn't work for me because-#-i have nothing. my handwriting isn't good my singing isn't good i'm not artistically gifted i don't have some random affinity for puzzles-#-i'm not charming or somehow really good at calculation or super creative or a really comforting friend i really have nothing at all#i don’t want to die. i have no plans on doing that sort of thing anytime soon— don’t misunderstand me#i just wholeheartedly believe i don’t deserve to be here anymore not because i’m not loved. i just can’t stand myself and my teenage years-#-feel so long and i'm so fragile how much longer do i have to tolerate. i'm contributing nothing. why should my family have to feed and-#-clothe a burden like me who provides nothing. why should my friends care for someone like me. i’m not really that funny or sweet or great-#-with advice giving or pretty or helpful in any way. why is it that life is genuinely easier for others. what did i do? what can i do?#how much longer must i tolerate this? would you believe me if i said i really did try to change my mindset this time?#i have no one in real life to talk to. therapists are pricey and i don’t think mine was helping me in any way anyways. she was nice though#so every night i sleep hoping i wake up somewhere else. somewhere where i'm happier and i can live all my silly fantasies where i'm a fun-#-and lovely person who has everything she wants and nothing goes wrong ever!!#how much longer must i hang onto the little things. i’m in such an exruciating amount of pain that i want to kill myself without dying? lol#everyone repeats the same stuff. get bit#i can't rely on the joy of having coffee every morning or persevere for the sake of seeing cute cats on insta. nothing will ease the burden
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#what sucks is the moment someone is super nice to me 😭 i start to liking them a lot#why am i like this 😭#i get shown any kind of decency or any genuine kindness I start to really like like them#then end up ruining the whole mood by telling them I like them 😂#i suppose finding some more attractive cause they're super nice to me stems from my childhood trauma LMAO#gotta love being a neglected kid 😭😂 it doesnt help when they're extremely pretty too 😭😭#lmao#what's wrong with me have some sense 😂 I know that just cause a person is nice to me doesnt mean they like like me or they even like me 😭#but i still can't help but start liking them 😂 its also probably cause i finally feel like someone cares about me 😭 then it goes back to#childhood trauma 😂 dude i cant lie being neglected while still having both parents is some thing else#cause its like I had both but they were always at work and when they got home would be so mean to each other mainly my dad to my mother;#the only did they'd ask if i was hungry but by the time grandma came to live with us that stopped and so they would not really talk to me#like i was talking to my cousin Richard on the night of the party; he asked why i dont talk to my dads side of the family#and he's super drunk and starts belittle and make light of the situation before i even start the main reason. so i told him to stop talking#over me and let me finish and stop belittling and making light of the reasons why i stopped talking to them entirely#then he got butt hurt and ended up waking his wife who was sleeping in the living room to go home.#i swear i have issues that i have yet to address lol and going to therapy doesnt work cause it makes me super uncomfortable so i stop going#after the first visits#😮💨 i can be so overwhelming why am i like this just cause they're nice to me doesnt mean they actually like me or even like like me 😭#i need to be better at accepting people's kindness without falling attached or like liking them a lot LMAO.#personal
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the energy on campus literally draining we're never getting that revolution aren't we...
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#genuinely only ever feel like im doing something nice when im kind of doing my own thing with my bf#like i cant stand being on whatsapp groups and waking up to 350 messages of drama anymore it really kills the soul#just want to do stuff but by detaching myself from the militant side of my college
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